Day 1: I Can Do This

Today is day one of Wood's week long business trip to West Virginia. He always says it's really hard for him to be away from us. It's not fair but every time he leaves I can't help but think he's essentially on vacation and that it's way harder to stay home than travel for work. 

Usually a few days before he leaves one of us gets overwhelmed by the most mundane activities. Usually me - I have a bit of a meltdown because I'm preparing for the time that I'll be alone and working my ass of more intensely than usual. But it didn't happen this time.

I'm not glad he's gone but I'm okay with it like when I was unmarried without a kid. Weird feeling. Now that I think of it, I've been having a lot of dreams lately - my First Love, being sick, dying, and other stuff like that that I can't remember right now - and I've been on a precipice for such a long time that perhaps this week is the time I'll have to step off of that ledge and figure out a few things. Despite today's calendar: 10am haircut, 11:30am Twig baseball game, 5-9pm Twig cast party (pizza, pool, etc.) and 4:30-8:30 homecare worker to sit with Grandma, and a messy house, I think that I can do this. Let's see what tomorrow brings.