Old Habits Die Hard

Today I broke my year long caffeine fast and had a regular soy latte for breakfast. Peanut M&M's for brunch. Reeses Peanut Butter Cups for Lunch. Plain M&M's for a mid day snack. A couple of saltines and water to calm my stomach. Rounded it off with Chinese: Lemon Chicken, Green Beans and Brown Rice, all washed down with a Racer 5 IPA.

Yesterday was hard, exhausting, excruciating. And brought family dynamics stuff to the forefront - magnified by a million.

I'm abandoning my family, I'm the outcast, they don't choose me to help even though I'm available and want to help. Because I'm not like them, I don't do things correctly. I'm no good.

This is not logical. It is purely emotional.