Clean

I fully expected to have a second film and to be sent on my way. That was one of the reasons I didn't tell Bam that this was a follow up. But instead, the appointment took nearly two hours.

Getting the pictures taken was fast. But then I waited. In the waiting/dressing room with three other women at a time. Three other women wearing the same gown that doesn't quite cover everything on your upper torso much less make you want to talk to complete strangers. There were several of us waiting for the same reason. And the doctor was running behind.

I asked the nurse to check in with my mom; all of the women who had gone in before me had since left. She thinks this is a routine mammogram. But she was reassured that the doctor was just running behind.

The nurse let everyone but me leave and told me they wanted to do an ultrasound. And my throat closed again. I almost went to the waiting room to come clean. The nurse suggested not. It should be real fast. I agreed. And waited some more.

The ultrasound tech brought me in and spent quite a bit of time rubbing her wand along my breast snapping pictures of it. She then sent the photos off to the doc.

The doc came in and said that she thought everything was fine but proceeded to ultrasound my breast again. She seemed reluctant but eventually said "you're okay" and sent me on my way. See you next year.

Exhale.