Back To the Grind Today

Work. Love it, hate it. Going back to it today.

Actually, I went back on Tuesday for a very important meeting that I insisted I attend in person. Good thing, too. I never would have been able to concentrate while at home and the content required my boss and colleagues to see my face - they don't understand the complexities of my staff, my job, my programs and services. 

Yesterday, Independence day, was kind of a bust. Wood, Twig and I woke up early and fooled around in our morning bed - teased, laughed, tickled, laughed some more. It was so much fun. Until The Boy's head hit my belly kind of too hard. I was in pain for the remainder of the day. It worked out - Grandma didn't want to go to the 4th of July party that Wood was invited to and I couldn't leave Bam here alone to sit with her so I stayed home with both of them and caught up on my self-pity and Season 1 of Glee.

Slow has never been my strong suit. Living for other people hasn't either. 

I don't feel 100%, that's weighing down on me. Grandma and her disinterest in doing anything except sleeping and sitting in the big green chair is also a bit grating. On all of us. I want to be able to move fast, jump and play and my body isn't cooperating much. I want Grandma to move out of our house so we can at least have the flexibility to go to a 4th of July party as a family. I don't want Bam to go home. But she will soon. I'm better enough to go back to work even though I'd much rather sit on the couch for a week gathering some mental and emotional strength all while calling it 'recovery from surgery'.

Everyone is fast asleep this morning so I'm headed to the office at about 7am. I'll leave by noon so that I can spend some more time with my mom and rest. I'm healing up nicely but not ready for a full day of work.