Light Headed Tired and No Time On My Hands

Greetings friends. So sorry it's been a while. I've been busy working, traveling while working, potty training, single parenting (while Hubbie is working extra shifts) and generally burning the candle at both ends.

After about two weeks of periodic dizziness for no apparent reason, I called my primary care physician and asked for an appointment. With some questioning the fabulous Patty who answers the phone at the Doctor's office checked availability and got me in to see a Doc a mere 45 minutes later.

The woman I saw was great - part physician part psychotherapist - she asked relevant questions that I'm not used to Doc's asking: Have you ever had panic attacks before? (no) What did you eat for breakfast? (I often skip or have cereal and eat at the office around 9) How much sleep do you get? (not nearly enough - I have a two year old) What do you do for a living (Social Work), is there much stress in your life (did I mention the two year old - the potty training two year old?), How much coffee do you drink (one 10oz cup per day), how much refined sugar do you eat (about 3 teaspoons per day in my coffee), candy (that mid afternoon snack you mentioned - this is usually it - snickers)? Pastries (lets see, three meetings a week, all public, with pastries...yes, too many pastries) any heart disease in your family (yeah, my dead dad who had his first heart bypass in his late 40's and died in his early 60's)...

Okay, so I've never had panic attacks before but this doesn't feel like panic. Maybe a little bit of stress. But not entirely. It feels like my body isn't right. My head is kinda light all of the time. Sometimes to the point that I feel like I'm going to pass out - when I'm sitting in front of my computer. And don't even get me started about how I feel when I climb those three flights of stairs to my office in the morning - like I'm going to hyperventilate because I'm so winded.

I had an EKG which showed a slightly decreased heart rate and was told 1) to quit caffiene 2) to eat protein (especially before I leave the house in the morning) 3) to have blood tests, a longer EKG, and stress test. And if all of that comes back negative, to consider discussions with my regular doctor about anti-anxiety medication. To which I responded that I am anti-medicine.

And yes, I think the stress is caused in part by not being able to write and post to my blog. It's kinda funny that Hubbie spends his free time lately at home on his computer - in the way he says he doesn't like me to be with screen. I pointed it out to him last night but he didn't listen. Just smiled and kept typing away. That's what I call a double standard. And it's nothing like eating chocolate for breakfast in front of your kid. It's way worse.